bela anak kucing lagik senang :p

i think i’m in love with my baby, nini. alah, bukan saya aje. my parents pun sama sayang sangat kat nini. i think he’s so cute. kalo jauh2 dari nini mesti rindu sangat :( non cat-lovers might find this ridiculous, but i do believe this is the way moms feel about their babies.

what’s so loveable about him is the way he puts up with me. balik2 kampung je, sampai rumah mesti saya akan gomol2 nini cium2 dia merata2 peluk2 lama2. he’d let me pet and love him like that. mak saya pun kadang2 naik hairan, how come dia rela aje kena gomol2 camtu since nini bukan kucing yang jenis suka kena peluk2 and digomol lama2 pun. paling lama tahan pun maybe 5mins. pehtu mesti meronta2 nak turun dan melompat2.

nini now agak2 menjaga makan. dia takkan makan lepas dia dah kenyang, walaupun saya kasik dia salmon sekalipun. wah wah wah :D then suka sangat menjaga kehenseman diri. sekejap2 nak menjilat2 bulu. saya perhatikan, dia takkan miss menjilat2 bulu lepas makan and before sleeping. yeah, he loves being cuddled in his sleep dengan syarat malam tuh sejuk. so, i can only cuddle him after 12am laa. kalo tak, dia bangun and carik spot yang sejuk skets nak tido.

nini ni manja laa sangat. kalau panggil nama dia, dia akan start purring. makan pun kadang2 nak suruh orang suap. kalo gi buang air, kadang2 saje je lepak baring terus, nak mintak mak saya dukung dia. sabar aje lah.

despite being oh-so-manja, budak nini nih suka betul gurau ganas. dia kalau geram, will start biting our hands and foot sampai berdarah2 pun ada. dia gigit sekuat hati dia. 90% of the time mesti nak geram2. 10% tuh dia gigit2 manja je.  but selalunya lepas dia menggeram, dia pandai amik ati balik. buat muka sedih at my dad and sleep near his foot. sangat comel. tak jadik orang nak marah2.

nini suka main kejar2. macam main polis sentri plak, the way he would run and touch me and run away again. sangat comel! dia suka laa sangat kalau saya layan dia main kejar2 tuh, haha.

ok, perenggan nak penutup ni takde kena mengena ngan nini secara langsung. just that i wonder why saya dah berubah. dari sangat suka budak2 kepada selalu menyampah kat budak2. memula ingatkan kat anak2 orang je. apparently dah menjangkit kat anak2 buah sendiri. ya tuhan. but i still love fayyad tau, hihi. so, saya buat kesimpulan, it might not be that memang saya dah tak suka budak2. maybe because of everything that happened in these recent years, my relationship with them sudah agak renggang. i do love them still but kelakuan2 mereka tetap ada yang merimaskan and membuat saya rasa menyampah, huhu.

and i do think nini is way better and cuter than most kids :D at least nini tidak menjerit2 tak tentu hala, haha :p (matilaa lepas ni kena sepak ngan mak2 orang, hahaha)

the 3rd year together :”>

macam manalaaa kawan aku buleh terfikir ini 3rd year aku ngan nini bila aku buat status kat facebook. dahlaa nini tuh kanak2 lagik, takde rupa macam kucing 3 tahun pun. lagipun perlu ke aku war2 kat status facebook aku yang aku dah bersama nini 3 tahun? wahahahhaha, kelakar dowh!

on this date, 3 years earlier, sayang dengan rela hati mengaku dia bf saya :P tahun ni takde poem jiwang2 yang terfikirkan dan meronta2 untuk keluar. saya pun malasssssssssssssssss laa sangat nak menulis blog. macam2 hal jugak kalo nak diceritakan tapi entahlaa, takde mood. disebabkan yang paling suka baca blog saya adalah saya sendiri (ahahahha, gila pathetic :p), takde sapa nak push2 suruh buat entry baru pun. sendiri malas sendiri takyah baca.

hopefully i get to see sayang tonight. been missing him lots. last week balik kl, tak set pun nak jumpa. sms dia bila dah sampai tol gombak. dia kata dia busy. lepak2 tunggu mama fayyad balik keje. dekat kul 10 baru diorang balik. then jumpa kejap dalam sejam je. malam tu plan tido umah nob kat shah alam.

so, lalu jalan genting klang, saje2 sms sayang. told him jalan jammed tengah2 malam kat situ. pehtu saya dah masuk mahameru baru nak sms “jom lepak2 minum”. uk alohhhhhhhh. dahlaa orang comot seharian. ngantuk lak tuh. tahap2 mata takleh bukak dah. walaupon hati meronta2 ingin berjumpa, selamba je kata tamo. told him that kalo nak gak dia kena anta saya balik s alam. lain kali je ek. dia pun replied “ok, lain kali ek kita jumpa” :”>

sayang, saya doakan awak cepat2 kaya and cepat2 laa bersedia ek ek, wahahahhaha, direct gila :p saya sayang awak :”>

ok dah.

hala tuju

i’m sad. one of my dearest friend and colleague resigned. 30th june was her last day. i might not say it directly to her, she has become one of my closest confidant and i do appreciate her for that and i love her much :) i will miss her tremendously.

and today i got another shocking news. another close friend and colleagu has tender her resignation. i love her like a sister and i do not know how to face mundane days at work without her.

with all friends gone (and going), i feel kind of lost. i don’t know what i’m going to do anymore.

seriously, i do not plan to spend the rest of my life doing things that i don’t love. i’m dragging my feet to work, doing things i don’t like just to make some money for myself.

i don’t have any clear vision of what i’m going to do and what i’m going to be in the future. i do feel like a loser some times. i don’t have anything to brag about. not a great career and not even husband or children of my own. sayang, come on laaa..cepat skets kasik can saya nak brag2, haha :p

thanks to mr. penasihat for listening to me and give me a vote of confidence. i’ll try my best not to screw up and come out with that nice plan for the future :)