biarlah rahsia..(hahahahha)

hey hey, ada plak orang suka2 nak main petik (main petik – amik ayat wadie di suatu hari itu, hahahha) kata bf saya yang terchenta tuh budak wadie. isk isk, i wish, u wish, they wish jerla gamaknyaaa, hahahahhaha. nope, wadie is still my very special bestfriend. still tadak feeling chenta chintun sama dia ekk, hehehhehe

identiti bf saya yang terchenta ini biarlah saya rahsiakan. bukan slalu saya neh mampu nak berahsia2, huhuhuhu. lagipun kalo2 tak jadik kang, wat malu saya jerla plak. so, kalo sungguh2 jadik, nanti leh wat press conference macam siti, muahahhahahhhaha

bf saya tuh dah ok dah. dia memang suka moody kekadang. semalam kena ngan saya, “awak neh pms ek?” saya tanyakan kat dia. “patut saya yg sms, apala awak plak yg sms?” lepas komen tak bermoral itu, sayang saya (dia bukan sayangku, hahahhahha

semalam saya dah memalukan diri saya sendiri kerana menyesatkan diri sendiri yang nak pergi ke midvalley. siap kena kutuk bagai sama wadie “dah pergi midvalley baper kali tah nak sesat2 lagik?” isk isk isk. kisahnya bermula, saya gatal2 nak guna laluan belakang kat kawasan umah saya tuh, kat nanyang siang pau tuh. laluan tuh baru dibuka. cun, siap dengan tar yang masih hitam berkilat2. tapi saya lupala plak, bahawasanya, dari situ, saya leh tembus ke susur jambatan kabel tuh nak menghala ke subang jaya jer. ke klnya takbleh. pehtu saya dengan gatalnya, slamber nak follow npe plak, walaupun saya amat2la jarang guna npe, hahhahaha. lepas tuh. sah2 ler sesat, sebab tak pusing masuk bangsar. last2 call wadie, ada kat dataran merdeka katanya. haaaaaaaaa, mahunya tak kena gelak + kutuk ngan mamat tuh. tapi takper, berkat usaha saya yg dah jadik 75% orang kl yang tau jalan2 kl, wadie tunjuk jap, pehtu dah tau jalan. pehtu dah lambatt sampai midvalley. dah tak sempat nak beli tiket konsert so7 neh, how? nak backstage pass..:(

hmmm, saya type entry tidbits itu ari tapi tak sempat publish, dah leka gossip diri sendiri ada bf baru, hahahhaha. so, meh saya copy paste ajer:

got myself a new mug bermotifkan kucing (meow) berkaler biru, putih dan itam, hehehhehehe

managed to almost mempanickan diri dengan bil credit card sebanyak hampir rm500 (eleh, cam tak expect memang banyak tuh pon, hahahahhaha). hey, to be fair, those bills come from fuels + groceries + shopping2 skets yang tak sampai rm100 pon nilai shoppingnya

my gaji masuk and clear awal bulan neh. macam tau2 jer aku hutang keliling pinggang, errrrr

also managed to get myself a mp3 modular since tempat masuk kaset kat cassette player aku tuh dah rosak. warning: dia buleh menelan kaset2 yang masuk dan tamo dikeluarkannya balik, hehehhehe. thanks to my companion, yang sudi diajak jenjalan tak tentu hala untuk mendapatkan menatang itu, hahahhaha

saya telah direlocate ke shah alam plak, to our site office, dan dijadikan project secretary plak. huiskkk, bunyik cam happening banget, tapi takla ada apa2 sangat pun, huhuhuhu

sheila on 7 will be performing in malaysia. some kind of road tour gitu. dolu2 pernah gak diorang wat mender cenggini. that time, aku pergi konsert kat penang. rm25 jer. diorang cam tetau aku dah keje, dah bleh affort to pay over rm50 nak pergi tengok konsert diorang. hiskkkkk

54 hours after..

hahahah, gatal kan jari saya neh? sama gatal ngan hati saya yang tak tetap neh. jap2 nak ajak date, jap2 tamo plak date. isk isk. blame my jari jemari ini, for creating our very 1st gaduh gitu, hahahhaha

i was feeling a bit guilty (a bit jer, mind u!), sebab tak fikir nak ajak dia g konsert s07 awal2. yerlaa, masa saya ajak my companion tuh, dia lom masuk lam equation. lagipun i was thinking, “errr, betul ker nak tengok konsert ngan dia neh?”

pehtu, kata hati yg ala2 merupakan gf yang baik (huhuhuhu), pon mengsms laa my so-called bf neh, tanya dia suka tengok konsert ker? dia tanya konsert apa. aku kata..kalo konsert search mesti dia suka kan. dia kata suka ler. pehtu aku explain la tuh konsert so7. aku kata kat dia, dia tak suka kan konsert indon neh? dia tak minat so7 kan? huhuhuhu, skalik dijawabnya camneh: “xyah pergilah mcm ni! awak ajak2 ayam jer kan?”

haaaaaaa, amik. terkedu terus, hahahah. sebab utamanya, memang kena tepat pada aku pun. tujuan utamanya, nak kasik hati yang rasa bersalah tuh yakinla kekunun, dia memang tamo g konsert itu, huhuhuhu. kan dahhhhhhh

setelah saya katakan saya ajak dengan seriyes, serta menyatakan sumer info pasal konsert, diam ajer terus dia. hangen lagila tuh seluruh badan dia. nanti ler malam saya kol dia. kalo dia nak g, 3some ler nampaknya, muahahhahaha

p/s: nampak sangat life saya yang sungguh boring. terpaksa spice up, untuk membuat entry, heh

42 jam selepas..

di atas kegatalan hati saya yg beremosi bukan2, dan jari saya yang gatal2 menaip “saya nanges..” telah membuahkan sesuatu yang membuat saya terkedu sekejap. yes, just 1/2 an hour after my last posting (see curhat entry below), saya telah mendapat respond yang err errr (tatau nak explain) but bukan sebab saya post entry itu, tapi sebab jari saya yang gatal2 neh, muahahhahahah

“kenapa awak nangis?” he kept on asking, and insisted aku cakap gak sama dia, huhuhuhuhu

“jap, saya nak g toilet” jawab aku, yang memang tak tahan nak buang air, hahahhahaha

pehtu, untuk membuat ujian, aku sajerla senyap. 2-3 minit pastu dia telah mengsms aku “cepatla cakap”

erk!

aku pon dokla meluahkan perasaan kat dia neh. perasaan bukan2 aku, yang suka rasa sedey tak tentu pasal, rasa sunyi sepi, dan meroyan nak bf, hahahhahaha

dia jawab kat aku, “aik, awakkan ramai bf”

“mana ada. kawan ramai ah. kawan mana boleh nak ngada2 lebih2, mana bleh nak demand lebih2″

“bf bleh mcm2 ek? saya kan bf awak”

nahhhhhhhhhhhh amek aku, muahahhahahhahha

iwan kata, aku jahat. dok kasik cinta tak sepenuh hati. dok main2kan orang. errr, do i really did that? tak kot. but then, this is the very thing that i’ve sworn never to get into again. ayarkkkkkkkkkkkkk *ketuk2 kepala sendirik*

malam semalam, setelah beberapa jam, secara ‘rasminya’ jadik gf orang neh, my so call bf sms, “jom jumpa malam nih” kata dia. errr, terkedu aku yang mamai + high sebab malam sebelumnya tuh memang tak dapat nak tido ler, hahahahhaha. makanya, terpaksa ajakan ‘bf’ terchenta itu terpaksa saja decline. hahahhahhaha, sabo jerla aku. makanya, tak pasal2 ala2 cam kecik ati sket2 ‘bf’ saya itu. tapi dia telah cakap kepada saya “oo, awak tak excited nak jumpa saya malam ni ek? takperla, lain kali ek”

lalalallalalla, saya gf orang? opssssssss, hahahahhaha

p/s: farina, please jangan marah saya yang suka buat mender bebukan neh..hehehehe

curhat (it’s curahan hati lerghh, hehehe)

he might not be my dream man. he might not replace the special place specially reserved for my dearest. he might be the thing that i swear never to happen again to me

the thing is, i only want a hand to hold on to. a face to smile up to. loving words to be given to. i just want to have that special someone in my life. i just want to love and to be loved

the quest for that perfect half of ours will never be easy. somebody found his/her other half, then lost it again. somebody is destined to search for that special someone throughout his/her life. those who have found their perfect other half, please appreciate what you have, at least on behalf of those that haven’t give up on searching

hey, the other day, ess told me, how much he admired ‘us’ as in few girls (or is it woman? heh) that he knew. i asked him why? he said, we seemed so strong. we seemed to be able to stand alone. we seemed not to need guys in our life. i just laughed. well, what can i say to him? yes, we are all that, and we are more

ess, if you are reading this, we don’t have choice are we? or is it, we choose to be happy. yes, i choose to be happy. i choose to appreciate every little thing that come up my way. i choose to be happy with every little good thing that come my way. i choose to do that, because i choose to live. hey, keep on counting on what you have, not on what you don’t have. but can i be happy for not having special someone in my life? the answer will always be ‘no’

if i have to wait, i will. for the time being, please god, never pull this blissfullness from me, ever again..

p/s: i just wanna him to know, i’m treading carefully coz my heart is not completely heal..

guwe capek banget..

siannn kaki saya neh, yang saya slalu ajak jalan2 ke office, n sesekali jalan2 pusing ou atau sesekali jalan2 pusing midvalley. hal2 lain, slalunya kaki saya jalan2 kat rumah jer, huhuhuhu. dua ari neh, kaki saya didera bawak saya jalan2 merata2. semalam, my companion aaaaaaaa, trick me. dia kata masjid klcc tuh 5mins walk jer dari klcc convention centre. punya semangat saya keluar. dahla saya silap amik jalan. free2, 5mins walk turn out to be 15mins walk. itu pun dengan cara bejalan saya yang laju, isk isk isk. takperla, exercise, katanya. huwaaaaaaaaa, capek capekkk

today gatal2 don’t wanna drive to klcc. opted to tumpang my friend’s housemate yang pegi keje kol 8. their office is at bangunan getah, opposite klcc. sampai2, beli nasi lemak tepi jalan, singgit, beli air mineral, then duduk2 amik angin sambil makan nasik lemak. after that, g convention centre plak. seb baik sangat kan ada connection provided by pikom. kalo tak, mampossssssss laa saya mati keras, sejuk dan boring. with almost nobody jalan-jalan to my booth (nobody = nearly 100 gak, hahhaha), memamng boring gler kalo takleh connect. so, online jer invisible. kacau2 my companion, kacau2 wan liana, main cak cak ngan my dearest some more, hahahhahah

today cannot jalan2 since i’m manning (or is it womanning? heh) the booth alone. seb baik ada ‘tuan rumah’ yang kewl. offered to look after my properties so that i can take my lunch-break. so, saya pun jenjalan, sambil zuhur skalik, this time kat surau klcc jer (jelir lidah kat my companion). iskk, jauh gler gak berjalan tuh. kaki saya dah memberontak, dengan mengatakan “capekkkkkkkkk” tiap kali saya hayun dia laju2

owhh..petang ini kita akan meneruskan usaha berjalan2 lagik. amik kunci umah kat member aku (she has to stay back, keje manyakkk), then g lrt station then kita balik, ess tunggu. seb baik baik ati plak bespren aku tuh, sudi amik kunci keta kat aku, pehtu kang amik keta aku kat umah member kitorang tuh, pehtu amik aku kat lrt, hahhahaha. mekacih2. nanti aku banjer ko ek ess, not to worry

sesapa yang duk around kl, and reading this, and is my friend (or not pon tak kisahlaa), do melawat2 me esok. i’ll be here before 3pm. after 3pm tuh, plan nak chabott dah, hahahhaha. esok, menatang alah jadah kat convention centre ini is open to public. seronok tuh. ada this 1 booth, offering ipod video 30g as a free gift. mariii datang menyibuk reramai. until then, take care all (especially orang duduk kat area2 padang pasir tuh, hehehhe), daaaaaaa

more tidbits

hey, i’m right here in klcc convention centre, in the very hall kimi datang berpesta2 f1 setiap tahun itu. think about it, kimi might even sat at the exact spot i’m sitting right now. wahh, that’s something, hahahhahah

while we are in the f1 subject, montoya retired from f1 starting this week. this weekends, pedro de la rossa akan menggantikan dia. dengar2, mclaren paying him 2mil pound sebagai some sort of pampasan sebab retirekan dia early, huhuhuhu. blasahlaaa. walaupon dha declare menchis montoya, but aku rasa aku akan still miss kepoyoan dia itu, huhuhu

yesterday, this friend of mine confront me. ingat dia tamo aa cakap terang2 setelah kes aku blew up kat blog itu ari. ngatkan dia kewl, upanya kecik ati gak mamat tuh. terus berenti baca blog aku. pehtu, terus tatau perkembangan hidup aku, hahahhaha. so, he explained himself. kata..dia frust aku tak faham motive dia and so on. well, i do understand..just that i can’t take bad stuff yang dikatakan against my dearest tuh. so..kenala gak ko faham aku neh ekk. not that aku hantam2 aku marah2 sangat sama ko pun. tapi..biasala..pompuan emosi cam aku neh, hahahhaha

my bestfriend is home again! i like i like, wahahhaha, over plak aku suka2 ekk? cam besa, sampai darat mesti mendemamkan diri. aku pon bebel2 suh makan ubat kat dia. tadik aku wat nada sedey tahap kronik, mintak dia balik sama aku gak ari sabtu. hmmm, motifnya..nak kena amik troley bagai pulang ke opis dulu neh benonya..pehtu dahla opismate sumernya tak available. bestnya2, i like laaa, hahahhaha

tak pasal2 tadik aku kena “shilaker” sama ess. mana idaknya, beriyer aku janji nak nenok pirate ngan dia, aku blasah dah tengok semalam. siap mau majuk nak nenok vcd gelap2 jer, kata dia. saboo jer aku, hahahha. lex la ess, nanti guwe tepatin janji guwe ke kamu *wink*

hmmm, dapat news yg aku telah direquest oleh team intec untuk memberi tenaga kerja tambahan kat diorang. will be in shah alam lerr aku tak lama lagik. duduk ah sana 2-3 bulan. sian plak member aku, kena g keje sensorang. isk isk iskk

hmmm, saya nak melarikan diri g masjid mentar..esok kalo beboring saya mengupdate blog lagik, hahahhaha. chiao

italy vs france, the head-buff, the overall highlight, the celebration and the award ceremony

tengok jerlaa, takyah komen bebanyak, hehehehh

bits and pieces

can hardly opened my eyes today. only got 2++ hours worth of sleep for the past 34 hours. thank you italy for winning this world cup. at least berbaloi saya tak tido, ehem

kesan daripada gegiler tengok bola (read: azzuri team only), maka saya nak wat announcement:

sesapa yg rupa dia AT LEAST 90% macam abang fabio cannavaro kita, dan mempunyai the same temperament, and the same smile, and the same tone of voice, and is unattached, please please please drop me a message. saya tengah giler neh. drop jerla message, tanak kenal ker dengan pompuan yg best cam saya neh? hahahhahaha

hey, got a terperanjat punya news. montoya is signing for nascar nex year. tak caya? click here

pagi tadik, i was merayap2 kat friendster neh. you guess what i found out? my companion punya teman main futsal, adalah bekas skandal lama my bestfriend si ess itu, huhuhuhu. terkujat berukkkkkkkkkk saya pepagi buta. what a small world. saya suka berkenalan berpusing2 camneh, isk iskk. remember pu3?

oklaa..pardon me for i can’t think of anymore mender merepek to write. esok kot lepas saya pulih dari kemengantukan ini..until then, take care. daaaaaa

forza italia!! – the cup is ours

picture courtesy of: www.soccernet.com

what else to be said? we played hard, and we deserved it. we might not play the game as well as the game against germany, but we created history by going through penalty kick calmly and mistake free

we might as well bagged in another 2 goals, but we were denied. 1 hit the post, and the another, we have an off-sided player. we probably would’ve won 1-0 if not for the superb dive from the france. tuh ler materazzi, len kali bio jer abang buffon selamatkan..jangan ko kecoh2

materazzi put in the equalizer few minutes afterward. materazzi neh centre of attention lak kan, sebab after that he goaded zidane into head-buffing him, resulting in a red card for him. siann dia, the last game plak tuh, isk isk

cannavaro was holding his breath the entire time of penalty kick. he did not lompat2 suka2 until we sumbat that 5th goal

forza italia! the best team wins. and we are the best!

the 2-0 win, italy vs german

hey, for those missing the game, here is the highlight of the game. see how buffon protected our net, and never miss the last minute goals, priceless!